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APHIE'S RANTS AND PIECES
2001-09-07 - 1:32 p.m. - I have run so far away from my self. I suddenly feel like I should make a connection with God, with my self. I have run so far from who I am or what I pleasurably enjoy that I do not know me as much as I want to. The other day as I sat here, and gasped at the strange events that my uncanny dream led me through I realized that I wanted to do something spiritual, something like reading my bible, saying a small prayer, meditating...something deep and into me. But I didn't. Or perhaps I did but whatever I did, did not succeed in getting me in too deep as I would have wished it would. I do not know why I keep this journal...I haven't made any friends on it, written anything that can cause one to ask "who is this girl? I am aroused by her passionate disposition, her beliefs in the weird eerie passage of life in her dreams and her love of arts and culture and her retention of her ideals." I know I just seem to be hovering round and touching temperately on the uneventful activities of my life with nothing new everyday and nothing that is exciting. I want to have good news for once. Not for once in my entire life, but once that I can call mine that "Yes, this is my journal and I am happy to report that...this happened to me." Perhaps that is why I keep this thing, in hopes that I can get some feedback about my personae from the few sparse people who glance by my page on their way to some sexually encrypted website. (sorry this is not in the third person...I felt the need to connect with my self for once) back track - fast forward - history aphie's chronicles - aphie's transcripts aphie's other personality - aphie's diary rings tell aphie you read her work - 
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