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APHIE'S RANTS AND PIECES
February 12, 2004 - 6:39 p.m. - There's nothing wrong with me, I jst got desperate *I think my senses may be coming back to me but let's not speak too soon.* I remember New Years Eve when I got invited by Uninteresting Guy to spend some part of the day with him. I remember saying to myself, "No I do not want to enter the New Year with this loser, it will doom me for the whole year." I wanted New Year's Eve to be me, my thoughts, the champagne and Keanu playing on my vcr telling me, yes, I am coming" Now, why didn't I keep that pact? In that space of time, I got confused by my emotions, the loneliness, that unnerving need for tenderness and that uncomfortable itch we women feel in between our legs every now and then. I made some bad judgment calls, acted out of desperation and just became a singleton loser. I look back and I think there was nothing wrong with being infatuated with Keanu. There was nothing wrong with the energy I obtained from that. It was sweet, innocent and healthy. It's time to replay the KR tapes, get my head screwed in and learn to ignore that uncomfortable itch between my legs and clue into those endearing eyes, maybe some answer about myself will come from then. Seriously. back track - fast forward - history aphie's chronicles - aphie's transcripts tell aphie you read her work - 
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