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APHIE'S RANTS AND PIECES
October 24, 2001 - 10:29 a.m. - sombre details from real life Well, he called last night. My ex that is. The time was a little after 11PM and I had waited all day for him to call so I could bombard him with all that stuff I told you about yesterday. He was on his way to a night club so he decided to call me. I really don't want to talk about it. I don't want to turn into one of these girls who continually talks about their boyfriend or ex as if their whole world revolves around him, sometimes you wonder if they can have a life without him. But in relating this to some things that happened in my life, like how depressed I was yesterday and how badly I needed to get laid, you would think his calling would change anything. No! Rather, it reminded me of that story Star Jones told us about the booty call instance. Except this was not a booty call because he lives 17 hours from me. But we talked about stuff that happened between us years ago. Why we broke up, why we haven't spoken since then. I felt I needed some kind of apology for being brutally dumped the way I was, he felt I had dumped him way before he dumped me because he was my rebound skank. I used him to get over some guy I was MADLY in love with. And still am in little bits. In retrospect we both were to blame and we both should stay the fuck away from each other since we both are in love with another. But no, we don't. He comes searching for me to live in the same country with me again after 2 fulfilling enriching years spent apart. My bro-in-law eas chuckling about it this moring. he was like, "he came here to live, and you used to date him. Don't you think this is just a little coincidental." Gah! I start to pull out my hair in anguish. why is he here, I left him there so I can forget about him, why is he here? He keeps asking, "Why are you in love with Sola? Why is he the perfect man?" Because Sola is the black man's version of Keanu: sweet, gentle shy and very mysteriously handsome. When you find a version of your dream man in real life in front of you, that is a coincidence you shouldn't ignore. And I didn't want to. This should be the last time I write about him like I am thinking about him. I have loads on my plate. I should keep my mind clear and my head focused. back track - fast forward - history aphie's chronicles - aphie's transcripts tell aphie you read her work - 
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