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APHIE'S RANTS AND PIECES
October 26, 2001 - 9:11 a.m. - The Bad News Theory My sister's best friend lost her husband last night to some strange illness. They were packing to move down here because he had been offered this 6/7 figure medical position with some hospital then after packing he just slumped. She thought he was kidding, when she tugged him she realized that he wasn't breathing. She couldn't administer CPR (she didn't know how) but by the time the paramedics came his tongue had gone blue, and then they pronounced him dead some minutes later. My sister is not taking it well. Her friend has been married for about 8 years and she is 4 months preganant with her first child. What is she going to do? Life brings a horrendous wind to our lives. It blows good and bad, but we try not to let it distort our vision. My sister left this morning to console her friend she would be gone all weekend. she left me at home with her 2 kids and her husband. My weekend is ruined. I wanted to go see From Hell this weekend, now I can't. I'd be happy if I can even see ON The Line now, but I doubt if they'd enjoy it. I wanted to do so many things, now I can't. I am just so angry and torn up inside. *This is me stabbing myself, multiple cuts and bruises to my skin* It is so annoying how a little thing in this world can happen and change the equilibrium of where your life is headed. A simple thing. Asides from the news of death, so many other things have changed the course of my life this weekend, and for the past few months since 9/11 and you have to be angry at fate for dealing you such a bad hand. Right now, I feel like calling fate out for a duel and then I beat the living shit out of it for dealing me such a bad hand. For taking that poor woman's husband at this time; for letting Sept. 11th change the face of our lives and the face of humanity; for letting Anthrax and all other stupid fears we now harbor--flying, etc---ruin our simple pleasures; for letting us move into this house which we cannot sell; and for just being the general prick that it has been lately. I'd really love to beat the shit out of it. You know like the way Mickey Rourke beat the living daylights out of Enrique in that Hero video, or Edward Norton beating up those 2 black dudes at the opening scene of American History X. Yep! I would do that to Fate...and I would enjoy it. And when I am done, I would say, "Go back there and sort something out! Don't come out until everything is working the way it should...Carpiche!" Then, I wouldn't feel so angry and boxed up inside. back track - fast forward - history aphie's chronicles - aphie's transcripts aphie's other personality - aphie's diary rings tell aphie you read her work - 
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