APHIE'S RANTS AND PIECES

picking up the pieces of a broken dream in whispers and shades

February 15, 2007 - More Bad News...you'd think I'd be used to it by now - February 11, 2007 - Corporate America Rant continues - February 01, 2007 - Graduate Career Search in Corporate America is a Fucked Up Campaign - January 07, 2007 - A little Art for the Art lovers - December 27, 2006 - Aphie has a Master's Degree -

July 06, 2006 - 8:37 p.m. - More to come...thoughts at 4 am How am I today? My neighbor woke up at 4 am, to do something or the other and because they are so noisy, I woke up. You know that sound that feels like someone is breaking into your apartment and is struggling with the door, and other wooden objects, that's the sound he/she kept making, and the footsteps are like thuds. Loud thuds. I just woke up, used the bathroom and I couldn't fall asleep again until the alarm went off and gave me the worst headache of my life. So I am not very good. When you wake up at that time of the day, your mind instantly starts to think of several things. For one, can I move apartments by the end of this month as previously scheduled? Every apartment has its' expiration date when the fun and fantabulous look of it, is just not enough for you. Granted I have ringside seats to the most spectacular firework display on July 4th from my neighbors in the country club, and I can walk to the concert venue behind the apartment, but is that really enough at this point. Your interests diversify and the fact that you are awakened at 4 am just helps to make up your mind quicker that it's time to assemble the boxes. Another thought is of course my exams. Exams hardly scare me. It's either I am prepared or I am not. But this one scares me, because I don't know anything, I don't know what the questions are about, I don't know how to begin to answer the questions at a master's degree level. So I thought about why I didn't get with my instinct and drop out, and then the other part of me told me that it is not that bad, because I can always take it again next summer, sacrifice my summer yet again to take an exam I am not sure will open doors for me. Top ten reasons why people should not wake you up at 4 am, because you get to thinking about stuff you avaoided all through the day, and it's not easy being confronted with those thoughts. back track - fast forward - history aphie's chronicles - aphie's transcripts aphie's other personality - aphie's diary rings tell aphie you read her work -